I Killed My Own Delusions
I killed my own delusions is a concept album about my own trauma and mental issues, attempting to represent them in interesting ways.This carrd was made to explain these songs and the characters in them.Please heed the content warnings listed in the videos and their respective pages
DEVIL
CW for intrusive thoughts and self hatred I guess?? hard to explainDEVIL is a song featuring Utatane Piko about intrusive thoughts and the voices in my head that joke about them. I share my brain with a couple voices of unknown origin, and one of them likes to make jokes about my intrusive thoughts, which are mainly about harming people.The character in this video is Scopophobia, who is the personification of guilt. She also has intrusive thoughts and believes she must be a horrible person because of these thoughts as no one who isn't a horrible person could think such things.
MALACHITE
CW for child abuseMALACHITE is a song about emotional child abuse sung by Mayu. It is very abstract and can be interpreted in any way someone chooses. It is inspired by the stone malachite symbolizing children and healing from trauma.The character in the video's name is also Malachite and she is made to appeal to 14 year old me
Blacklight Night
CW for unhealthy coping mechanismsBlacklight Night is a song about unhealthy coping mechanisms or anything that would cause someone's problems to come back in the future, or cause them more harm. This specific song is about desperately trying to forget all your problems only for them to come back later with no way for the person to forget them again. It features Yumemi Nemu, Vflower, and Kamui Gakupo.The video starts Cybergoth Gakupo, who, despite his new outfit, was also seen in I Feel Sick. I love Cybergoth Gakupo and would love to use him as many videos as I can.I RECOMMEND LISTENING TO THE SOUNDCLOUD VERSION OF THIS SONG BUT I WILL HAVE THE VIDEO HERE AS WELL
Medicated Girl
Paper Girl was inspired by Weevildoing's album, the post-traumatic manifesto. It is about not knowing very important things in your life, and not feeling like you have any control.I made a TPTM-style profile for Paper Girl
Nothing here yet!! This page is coming soon =)
